I’ve always struggled to live in the present. I’m nostalgic – I still get chills walking around my old college campus – and yet I’ve also always excelled at worrying about the future. I’ve spent Friday nights at bars surrounded by best friends and yet my mind still drifts to meetings I’ll have on Monday. I’m probably not alone in this fight, but I detest it nonetheless.
Today I worked really hard to live in the present, to live in the moment. And I think I did pretty well.
I recently relocated to Chicago from St. Louis. Moving was a piece of cake, as I bought furniture from someone in Chicago. Today, I cleared out my old apartment in St. Louis with the help of my parents and brother. As I was loading up my bedroom set, it occurred me how often they’ve helped me move it. In the past few years, this furniture has gone from my childhood home St. Louis, to college in Columbia, Mo., to Kansas City for an internship, to my parents’ new home in Indiana, back to St. Louis for my first job and now into storage. My parents helped with each of these moves, and never complained once.
Who are these people? What possesses them to be this kind?
It must be unconditional love. I was moved by a recent blog post from Tim McKernan, a radio personality in St. Louis. He had a very close call with cancer, but thankfully was not diagnosed with the disease. One of his messages was enjoy time with family and friends while you can.
Hopefully it’s not for a very, very long time, but at some point I know my parents won’t be around for Christmas. I cringe at the thought. I hate it. But for today, I enjoyed their company as we spent the afternoon together and went out to dinner. I put the iPhone down (for the most part) and focused on the people who have always been there for me, who will always be there for me.
I realized today I was in a moment for which I will one day be nostalgic. Perhaps that’s the key to living in the present.
About the author:
Michael works in communications and is enjoying a new adventure in Chicago. He's a fan of baseball and conversation. Say hello at @MichaelBittner.